di mana kah?

This week become the first ever week that i didnt meet X at all. I didnt talk to X..i didnt chat with X..and i didnt even msg X. Anyway, i did msg X twice this week, but no reply from X..At the moment, i have 2 feelings; -

1-Guilty; scare to death if anything happen in the family
2-Worry; if anything happen to X..

I hope everything goes well with X..i miss X much now. Semoga this coming monday, dia akan at least leave a msg in my inbox..please tell me, that u r okay..please at least tell me; that i no need to feel worry..

urmmm, i have my ego too..kalo sekali dah msg, xde reply; xkan nak msg byk kali..urmm, kalo nak call, takutla pulak kalo die bukan kat senawang..urmmm...i have no idea what to do..maybe X just realised that X shouldnt start at first..
i know, this going to an end....the story of between us...but i am not ready to loss u at the moment..i miss u alot...